Something has changed. I don´t know what it is. I don´t know what happened. I just hope that it´s only "temporary".

E-mails are wrong. They are okay when you need to send some "Hullos". I can´t recommend them for transferring a feeling.
Don´t do it. Don´t try it. Sometimes it works..but one word can destroy it all. Because you can´t see and you can´t sense and you can´t know. You just read letters that form a sentence. And if that sentence makes you feel bad then you are. Imagine it wasn´t meant to make you feel bad. Your feeling won´t go away until another day. Explanation doesn´t work. Saying excuses and sorry doesn´t work. A hug, a kss and the simple presence would be able to make it better but they won´t happen just now. Waiting.
Even worse when you are incapable of sorrys and excuses, when your inner voice keeps you from "just forgetting about it". Inner turmoil.
Everything that follows feels wrong. Feels fake. You don´t want it. I don´t.

Someone make it better please. Make me better.