I'm actually watching Asterix..on BBC2...which is like..EH?? I've never seen Asterix in English before...

ahhhhh it's the one in which they have to perform some tasks and have to go into the "house that sends you mad" hahaha YAY.
Apparently, the story is called "Aterix and the 12 tasks"..ok

I'm thinking of making a new website. I know what I want it to look like (sort of) and I know what I wanna write about..but I dunno how to do it. Help.

Opinion Poll
Should I dye my hair black, red/copper or blond (as in Gwen-Stefanie-blond)??

	Black
	red/copper
	blonde...Gwen-Stefanie-blond
Results Nev, 14:44h.

This is what some random "Dream Dictionary" says:

Die

To dream that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or in your life. Although such a dream may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm and is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually mean that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes do not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.

On a negative note, to dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation.


Murder

To dream that you are murdered, suggests that some important and significant relationship has been severed and you are trying to disconnect yourself from your emotions. It also represents your unused talents.

Note also that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.


Killing

To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions. Alternatively, it refers to drastic changes that are happening in your life.

This dream may also represent a part of you or your life that you wish would leave you alone and stop creating a nuisance. Killing may represent the killing of old parts of yourself and old habits.

Ever died in one of your dreams?
I did...2 nights ago. Someone shot me and the guy standing next to me (his name was Frank..don't ask me why) Dying in your dream is weird. Everything is dark..then you open your eyes and you notice you're lying on the floor..another body collapses on you...

and everything is in slow motion. calm. silent.

you smile. your soul smiles.

then everything is dark again. just like falling asleep.

ever died in your dreams?

William Wordsworth ~ Conclusion

In one of those Excursions (may they ne'er
Fade from remembrance!), through the Northern tracts
Of Cambria ranging with a youthful Friend,
I left Bethgellert's huts at couching-time,
And westward took my way, to see the sun
Rise, from the top of Snowdon. To the door
Of a rude cottage at the mountain's base
We came, and roused the shepherd who attends
The adventurous stranger's steps, a trusty guide;
Then, cheered by short refreshment, sallied forth.

[Prelude, XIV, 1-6]

"...successful callers will be asked to leave their contact details. Not all calls will be successfull but all calls will be charged."

Ahhh, sure. :s

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So, it's Tuesday which means "LOST-day" *sigh* yay! >_<
Anyway...at the moment I'm sitting here in the front room, watching a programme on finding some family a house in Devon (beautiful) and trying to find a haircut that might look good on me. I'm also trying to interpret the dreams I had last night.
The following symbols were

• death (me being murdered that is)
• loneliness
• scared
• love
• losing hair
• illness

scary...especially since the meaning of it all is basically that I have problems. Oh really?! :s

Hm. wow..you should see those houses they're looking at. Amazing. Oh, the show is called "Escape to the country"..hm makes sense now.

I dunno what else to write at the moment...maybe I come back later.

1. What color are your kitchen plates?
They're not mine but if you still wanna know they're white with some artsy stuff on them..nothing annoying

2. What book are you reading now?
"Fast Food Nation" by Eric Schlosser

3. What is on your mouse pad?
"House of Commons" symbol...oh and it's not mine either

4. Favorite board game?
I don't like board games..I don't like games at all realy..they give me aggressions...

5. Least favorite smells?
ohhhhh..can't decide really..there're loads of bad smells out there

6. What is the first thing you think of in the morning?
bby

7. Favorite color:
red and green..hm..

8. Least favorite color:
turquoise

9. How many rings until you answer the phone?
depends on where I am but normally 1-2

10. Future child’s name:
Jonsi (with the Icelandic ' on top of the i), Stella...and yeah..still thinking about it ;)

11. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate

12. Do you like to drive fast?
not really..especially not in a car..but I tend to be too fast on the motorway..hmm

13. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
not at the moment

14. Do you like thunderstorms?
nope

15. What was your first car?
I never had a car...but I borrowed someone's Ford in 2003 for a month..man that was great!

16. What is your sign?
Capricorn

17. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Uhm sure..if they're nice

18. If you could have any job what would it be?
Translator...musician...

19. If you could have any color hair what would it be?
black or Gwen Stefani-blond or copper

20. Is the glass half full or half empty?
half empty

21. What is your favorite movie?
omg..too many to choose from..maybe I'll add a list later...

22. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?
pardon?? :s ...guess so..

23. What’s under your bed?
two drawers with clothes..

24. What is your favorite number?
8

25. Favorite sports to watch?
Football

26. Your single biggest intense pain?
boh, can't remember..

27. Person most likely to respond?
nobody?

28. Person you sent this to who is least likely to respond?
nobody..it's in my blog!

29. Ketchup or mustard?
ketchup or sweet mustard..hmmmmmm

31. Hamburger or hot dog?
hamburger...or hot dog??

32. Favorite season?
spring

33. The best place you have ever been?
in the same room with Sigur Ros in Dresden...(and I have to think about this question some more)

34. What is your screen saver?
Iuh, no screen saver here

35. What is your favorite fast food place?
hm..I'm no longer eating Fast Food...

36. What is your favorite breed of Dog?
no idea

37. Your nicknames?
Dani (or Danni or Dany), Nev...

38. Have you ever been kissed by the opposite gender?
sure

39. What annoys you the most?
Stupidity, making decisions, silence...

40. What’s your crushes name?
I'm not telling ya..:p

41. What’s your best friend’s name?
uhm...what's a best friend? I dunno...I have friends..good friends...I'll just name them all: Martin, Zara, Martina..

42. Which celebrity annoys you the most?
Paris Hilton (what is it with her?? What does she have what I don't have?? Oh wait! Money..sure..) and lots of other people...

43. What type of music do you dislike the most?
Everything that was written by some "professional writer" for some 3-girls-shaking-their-bootay-RnB-band or some boyband or whatever they have on MTV etc most of the time..

45. What is currently on your wrist?
skin?

46. Okay, If you and one other person could be alone on the entire planet, who would you choose?
the bf

47. Are you a righty or a lefty?
righty...and lefty..sometimes..

48. What’s your favorite TV show?
Will & Grace, Friday Night with Jon Ross, Deal or No Deal?, Friends, Six Feet Under, Gilmore Girls...

49. If you could make-out with any cartoon character, who would it be?
errrrr...no thx

50. If you could say or do anything to Johnny Depp, what would you do?
*blank*

51. What is your favorite book(s) or author?
hmm..Bill Bryson roxx... *thinks*

52. If someone stole your wallet/ bag what would you do?
SWEAR!!!! &4*£/@ARGH#"4$

53. Would you/have you ever had someones name tatoo’ed on your body?
not really

54. How many videogame consoles do you own?
none

The sun's shining again.



Forward.

I dunno, where is it coming from that sadness? Shouldn't everything be just perfect? I'd say so, yes. But it's not. The days are sunny but inside me's just clouds and too many hormones. I'm actually starting to be annoyed by myself and me being like that. Like what? Well, lonely, awaiting, bitching, hoping, jealous...all that and probably more.

I'm not used to anthing at the moment..be it the money, the living situation, the fact that I won't have to go home today (or next week etc), the cars driving on the other side, the much bigger city, the longer walks or that someone has changed...and not just physical appearance...

I guess I'll just have to live with all these facts..no other option given.. I could talk but that would just end in something worse than that.

Btw. why am I jealous? Because I can't share the same moment..but I want to. I do know that I can't share everything, that we can't be together 24/7...but some things just feel too important to me..(how can I explain that?)..

Rewind.