It's been a nice day so far. Had breakfast with a friend..then talked about this and that, then learned some English with her (Indirect Speech) and now I'm sitting here with my head looking weird cos I'm dying my hair...also I just finished watching "Ice Age" again..which makes me laugh and cry... :)

Hope it'll turn out alright.

And in other news:
I almost got hit by a car yesterday O_o ...I was trying to cross a street (of course not where the traffic lights are but before them/next to them (?))...One car was stopping for us mainly because its lights were red....I stepped on the street...then double-checked if it had really stopped..yes it had...in the middle of the road I suddenly saw a car speeding into my direction...and if I hadn't been able to jump out of the way it would have hit me..(sometimes you're so shocked..you can't move..lucky me I was rather angry at the driver for speeding although the lights were red..that I wasn't shocked) v_v

Disclaimer: possible mistakes (tenses and so on) are without any purpose. ;-)

..."resisting" can be easy. Yay.

Waiting is the curse of my life. I do believe that.

(Without trying to copy the Devlins...)

Waiting for the next day
waiting for a good day
waiting for that special day
waiting for the better days
waiting for another day
waiting for yesterday
waiting for tomorrow
waiting for a phonecall
waiting for a postcard
waiting for the year to end
waiting for the better end
waiting for the waiting to be over
at last.

1. anxiety
2. stubbornness

...to be continued.

Something has changed. I don´t know what it is. I don´t know what happened. I just hope that it´s only "temporary".

E-mails are wrong. They are okay when you need to send some "Hullos". I can´t recommend them for transferring a feeling.
Don´t do it. Don´t try it. Sometimes it works..but one word can destroy it all. Because you can´t see and you can´t sense and you can´t know. You just read letters that form a sentence. And if that sentence makes you feel bad then you are. Imagine it wasn´t meant to make you feel bad. Your feeling won´t go away until another day. Explanation doesn´t work. Saying excuses and sorry doesn´t work. A hug, a kss and the simple presence would be able to make it better but they won´t happen just now. Waiting.
Even worse when you are incapable of sorrys and excuses, when your inner voice keeps you from "just forgetting about it". Inner turmoil.
Everything that follows feels wrong. Feels fake. You don´t want it. I don´t.

Someone make it better please. Make me better.

Disappeared

I wish I could use different colours for each entry. Does someone happen to know if I can do that cos it looks so boring..I´d even be happy with different colours for the titles of the entries.

*sigh*

Anyway, uhm I´m having a biscuit.

I started writing something the other day..like everything else I wrote so far it came out of nowhere and I have no idea what it means...

I dunno, it sort of suxx when nobody understands what I´m writing about. On one hand it´s cool..hm can one be proud of "complex thinking"? If 'yes' then I certainly am proud of it. *lol* On the other hand it´s just people reading my stuff, telling me "Yeah it´s nice" but they have no f*cking clue what I´m talking about :( although it often is so simple (at least that´s what I think).

Maybe...maybe it´s all just a big pile of sh...

Now I´m at a point where I forgot what I wanted to write. Great.

Alright..this will be the start of a list of words that I hated the most in 2005...(no particular order here).

1. Hometime
2. waiting
3. next (in combination with the following)
4. year
5. leaving

Will be continued....

Feel free to add words if you like.

..are boring. But not this one. My friend Zara called me just when I was having a boring yoghurt and asked me if I wanted to go to a flea market with her and her friend Elsa. Sure. Good decision, since the sun was shining and it was not too cold and yeah..I needed to move my lazy arse a bit. ;)

I found a nice Poster that, when I looked at it, seemed to fit perfectly in our kitchen. *dreams* I HAD to buy it!



I love those flowers and the blue of the sky and yeah..I have a thing for asian thingys.

I also bought some "incense" (have to trust LEO on this one)

Sandalwood and Pine

Wonderful. Hmmmmmm.

What else. Oh yeah. After that, we went to that American "Diner" Restaurant and had some Cheeseburger+Chips+Coleslaw...yummay.

Really a wonderful day and we said that we wanna try and do something like that more often. We´ll see what happens.